After all the years the two of you have know each
other, after all the years he spent telling you that you are beautiful that you
were capable of doing anything you wanted to, you never thought the day would
come when it would be you giving James the pep-talk. You are both sat back stage
after yet another amazing Manics' gig, Nicky and Sean have both gone back to the
hotel and left you to play agony aunt with James. You have notice that James
self-confidence has lowered slightly over the past year, not to say that the
past year has been easy for him. He's gone through a hell of a lot so you can
understand while he's feeling down. But what you are finding hard to understand
is why is he being so hard on himself, of course the reason for this is that
you've always found him attractive. He's sat down on the couch in front of you,
staring into a class of Jameson and coke and you can't help but feel sorry for
him. You are getting to the point were you just want to sit down next to him,
wrap your arms around him and tell him that there's nothing wrong with him, that
you think he was the most gorgeous, intelligent, kind, caring, funniest,
talented man you've ever met. Oh yeah and the part about you loving him more
than anyone else in your life but of course you can't, Jesus you're not THAT out
going! Finally it becomes too much to bear, "Right come on you". He
looks up at you, "Where are we going?"
“Chippy then back to the hotel and I'm not taking no for a answer!" you
say pretending to be deadly serious. He chuckles and puts on his jacket then you
both head out of the venue but then stop outside so James can do a few
autographs and photos with the fans who have been mad enough to stand outside
waiting for him in the pissing rain (I know I would). And as you watch them you
remember that 5 years ago that was you, in your leopard print and eyeliner. And
now here you are working for Hall Or Nothing and the Manics! (You obsessive
you!)
When the pair of
you finally get back to the hotel it's pretty late and you are both soaked. You
are about to say your good nights to James when you see Nicky heading towards
you. "And where are my chips then? " he says, the pair of you look at
him a bit bewildered. "Nick, you left about two hours before us. You could
of got some yourself!" James says, Nicky just smiles at him before shoving
his hand into James chips then legging it into the lift! "You lanky bastard
Wire!!!" James shouts after him as the lift doors shut, you mean while are
standing there laughing your head that is 'till he turns and looks at you. You
bite your lip and smile, James gives you this daft, angry look which makes you
laugh. You hear the ping of the 2nd lift doors and decided to copy Nicky's exit
and leg it into the lift but James manages to catch you. "Ha, can't get
away that easily" he says but as he's about to grab you the doors open on
the second floor (yip the lift is that fast!) and this old couple get in. But
luckily for you two the lift keeps going up, much the their disappointment. You
look over to James who is now standing on the other side of the lift pretending
to be cross with you so you stick your tongue out at him, he lets out this loud
smirk which causes the couple to look at him very strangely. You have to put
your hand over your mouth to stop yourself from laughing out loud then
thankfully you arrive at your floor, where Martin (Hall) is waiting to get in.
He looks at the pair of you and ask what's so funny, you and James look at each
other, smile, shake you heads and say "Nothing, why?". Martin just
shakes his head, gets into the lift and says he wants you up bright and early
tomorrow 'cause you and him have lots of work to do. You groan and agree then
wave him good night.
All
the Manics crew are on two floors, you, of course, are on the same floor as the
band. You both make you way to your rooms (James being opposite yours, how
convenient), then turn to each other and just as you are about to say good night
to him for the second time you see that something is bothering James.
"What's wrong hon?" you ask worried. He looks up at you, (like the way
he does in the tolerate video when he stares through the glass... THUD!) sighs,
then says quietly "Nothing".
"Look, go have a shower
and warm yourself up then come to my room and we'll talk, okay?” a small smile
comes across him face, "Yeah okay". And with that you both turn and
head into your rooms.
The
minute you close the door behind you, you start to madly tidy up your room,
throwing clothes in wardrobes, shoes under the bed and make-up into drawers.
Then you catch a glimpse of yourself in the mirror and let out a small "EEEK!"
and head straight for the shower. You don't take as long as you usually would
since you are unsure of when James will turn up so its a case of a good, quick
scrub, put on some mascara, dry your hair and for some reason you decided to
slip into your nightie. As you stand in front of the mirror you start to
question whether or not you should change into something else but then think
"Nah, f**k it. James won't mind". So you put on the TV, grab yourself
an ice cream out the small fridge next to your bed, make yourself comfy and wait
for James to show. About an hour later there's a knock at the door, you smile to
yourself and hurry to answer it but when you do the smile soon vanishes from you
face. Yes it James but it’s obvious that everything isn't alright. His eyes
are red and swollen, his face stained with tears. "Awww babe, come
here" you say and pull him close to you and hold him tightly. He wraps his
arms round your waist and starts to cry again, you bring him into the room and
sit him down on the bed. You hold him close to you, his head resting on your
shoulders as you gently stroke his hair. You both sit like this for a while and
as much as you hate to see him upset you can't help but feel glad that he is
finally getting all this off his chest. After a while you reach over to the
bedside cabinet and hand him a tissue and once he has finished wiping away his
tears he looks you deep in the eyes and softly says "Thanks".
"Ah its nothing, really. And, well, I'll be honest with you James, its good
to see you finally letting your emotions out instead of burying them away."
You look at him and see the moon light coming through the window reflect in his
dark, wet eyes. It’s at this point that James realises what you're wearing.
"God, you look lovely".
"Hmm.. what? Oh yeah, thanks", you blush slightly. The two of you sit
there silently, looking at each other. Then James gently brings his hand up to
your face, strokes it a couple of times then brushes his fingers through your
hair and all the while the two of you never lose eye contact. And as James
brings his hand down he runs his fingers softly down your arm and then takes
your hand in his. You look at your hand being held tightly in his then you look
at James and he smiles sweetly. You are now practically bursting at the seams to
tell him how you feel but there is a part of you still yelling NO! after all
this could effect everything. But your thoughts are soon broken by James, about
to say something. "F**k, I really need to tell you this".
"Okay", you say nervously. He takes a deep breath, takes you other
hand in his and looks you straight in the eye. You can tell by the look on his
face that what he has to say is really important so you sit there and wait for
him to pluck up the courage to say what's on his mind. But you don't have to
wait long. “I... I... really care about you. A lot. In fact I... I think I...
love you. I've been wanting to tell you for long so now but never had the guts
to say". You let out a sigh of relief and smile at him, you lean forward,
put your arms around him, pull him as close as you can with out choking him and
whisper in his ear "I feel the same way."
You turn and look at him; he smiles at you
and softly, but firmly, kisses you. You kiss him back and the more you both kiss
the more passionate it becomes, his hands caress your back as you entwine your
fingers in his hair. He gently pushes you down onto the bed then he starts to
moves away from your lips, moving to your ear and slowly down your neck stopping
every now again to suck and bite on your skin. You are rubbing your hands across
his back when you feel his eyes burning into you, you open yours and are
immediately suck into his deep, dark, sexy brown eyes. You pull his head down
and kiss him, slipping you tongue inside his mouth, feeling for his. Then you
feel for the buttons on his shirt, slowly undoing them one by one. Once his
shirt is open you lay him down on his back and you start to kiss from the neck
downwards. When you reach his belly button you can feel his ‘excitement’
against your chest, you look up at him and he has this pleading look in his eyes
(which of course none of us can resist). You give him this dirty, cheeky grin,
as you take the zip of his flies in your teeth and very slowly pull it down.
Then you really start to tease him by playfully rubbing you nose against his
hard on, you hear him let out a frustrated moan. Quickly you grab the waist line
of his combats and boxers and pull them down, taking them off completely and
throwing them to the other side of the room. When you look back at James you
soon discover all those rumours are true and you smile a very happy smile to
yourself but soon you sense that James is feeling just a tiny bit uncomfortable
so you join him back on the bed. He sits up and takes off his shirt then just as
he's about to snuggle up to you, you playfully push him away. Then you stand up
on the bed, standing over James. You look down on him; he has a look of
anticipation on his face. He starts to gently stroke you ankles and your legs,
never taking his eyes off you. You decided to give him a quick striptease;
slowly you take the thin silk strap of your nightie off you left shoulder and
the same with your right. The nightie slowly falls down your chest, then down to
your hips where it stops. You turn around; give James a cute, little arse wiggle
and the nightie falls at you feet. You step out of it, kick it off the bed and
turn around to face James, reveal your stunning Ann Summer's underwear. Then you
kneel down between his legs so that you both are now face to face. You watch him
as he admires you, running his hands over you. You both start to kiss again,
James pulling you onto his lap. His hands quickly discard you bra, he then rolls
you over and takes of you knickers. Now you're the one feel a bit uncomfortable
but not for long. James is working his way down your neck, down to you chest and
for a while you can feel his hard-on rubbing against you thigh. He takes his
time on your chest, kissing, sucking, licking and occasionally softly biting
each nipple. He then starts to kiss his way down to your belly button where he
stops and plays with it with his tongue. You feel so relaxed and spoilt. You
then feel James hand start caress you thigh as he start to move his mouth
further down. You let out a small moans as his hot mouth touches the cold skin
of the inside of your thigh and he starts to move his mouth downwards to
in-between you legs. He runs his tongue along you lips and then he runs it
in-between them which makes you arch you back in shear pleasure. He starts to
drive you wild as he runs his tongue back and forth over you very red clit.
You're digging your nails into the mattress, then pulling at the sheets before
pushing James head further down on you. You can feel your orgasm building; you
really don't feel you can fight it much longer when James pulls away. You look
at him, start to begging him not to stop. He smiles and says in a very husky,
knee melting voice into your ear "don't worry honey, I'm not done with you
yet". He kneels over you, kisses every inches of your face starting from
your forehead and ending on your jaw-line. Then he captures you in his gaze
again and as he does you feel him push you legs further apart then as he leans
over you again you feel him push inside you. You gasp and wrap you arms around
his broad shoulders. He starts to set the pace and you soon give in to his
rhythm. His pushes start to turn into thrusts as he starts to penetrate you
deeper and deeper. He pulls both of you up so that his now sitting, with you on
his lap. And now you can really feel how deep he's going. But you know, even
thou you want it to, this pleasure isn't going to last for ever (what with him
getting you all excited before hand) so you do your best to help James ‘catch
up’. You start to slam your hips down as he thrust into you sending this
incredible wave of excitement over both of you, you pleaded with him to go
faster and pull him down on top of you again. You can't hold it back any more
and let you orgasm take over, you wrap you legs round his waist and pull
yourself as close as you can to James as it washes over you.
You
nuzzle you head in-between James' shoulder and neck and listening to his very
heavy, quick breathing. Then you hear him let out a very satisfied moan as he
rest his head on your shoulder and continues to thrust until his legs can't hold
either of you up any longer. As you both lay there on the bed, breathless, you
resting on his chest, James stroking you hair. You've never felt this happy or
this wanted, you kiss his chest softly and then look up at him. He smiles that
adorable smile at you, pulls you up close to him then turns on his side to face
you properly. He then takes you in his big, strong arms and holds you tightly
making you feel safe, loved and protected. And as you both drifted off to sleep
you wish to yourself that you would hopefully feel this way for the rest of you
life.